At first I felt like Kagloo does. I really wanted to tell anyone and everyone what I thought was something great. I had naievely expected people to want to listen. The first call I made - someone was home, an elderly lady who said she went to the Kirk every Sunday and she wasn't interested in the Bible.Little did I know that it was to be one of the most productive calls I ever made. I still felt enthusiastic, week after week, month after month. Slowly realising that I'd go weeks, no- months without getting anyone at home. Even if I did, they only took the mags in a -yeah ok now go away- kind of way.Once I even came back with more mags than I went out with, as someone returned a heap! Thanks! Once in a while someone seemed like they wanted to talk, on the return there was no-one home, time and time again. When we were out far away from home, we were actively discouraged from trying to get a return visit. we were going somewhere different next time and we wouldn't be back here till next year, if then! After what I thought looked like a hopeful call, an elder actually said to me, "Do you really want to come all the way back here again?"
I gradually realised that nearly all the others were just finding ways to fill their time, walking v-e-r-y slowly.Long coffee breaks, time to go back now! I was angry that they could answer up at the meetings about 'the privelidge' of the ministry etc when it was a big lie.Almost no-one wants to hear and almost no-one wants to teach. The zillions of hours in the yearbooks, WHAT? I often said we should have stopwatches, we'd be lucky(Irony intended) to really speak to people who wanted to listen for more than an hour or so a year.
Towards the end we had the start of the Foot and Mouth in UK. I said I did not want to go out while that was on," Oh but we should wait till we're told,"- viruses don't know about Brooklyn was my attitude.About the same time there was a paedophile JW report on the radio and TV every bulletin. I said it was crass insensitivety to go on the min with all this going on. I got a lot of sideways looks! The ministry was just an excuse for a lot of back-biting bitching too! I honestly never met such a bunch of back-stabbing hypocrites.
Things stared to crumble. The hypocrisy, the lies. And what FOR anyway.I had better things to do at home.
So, sorry to go on, but in short, I started out thinking it would be great and soon realised it was a bunch of rubbish., and stopped - just like that!
Shirley.